I don't know what to do anymore help please i dont know just something?

You need long term counselling. I am not sure a school counsellor will be of any help. Your are having to deal with a huge trauma and you need someone who specialises in trauma and attachment issues. Psychodynamic therapy could help you with this but it is long term. It will take time but it will help you. Dont go to the psychiatrist and dont do any CBT or other short therapies, they will not be able to deal with the early trauma you have suffered. When our attachment to our mother/father or other important people was not good enough it sets the blueprint for other relationships. Basically we see the world through a 'trauma lense' We fear people and our environment. It sounds like you have had a difficult start in life and that will take time to heal. If you live in the UK take a look here a href="http://www.psychoanalytic-council.org/main/" rel="nofollow"http://www.psychoanalytic-council.org/ma…/a for a counsellor or take a look at the BACP website for a psychodynamic counsellor.